Life is so gonna be SUCK... !!

Been busy at work these days, what i do is just suck it up, to accept something bad and deal it well, at the same time controlling my emotions, BIG sigh~!! Some of my friends know that i was in a dilemma of selecting a position few weeks ago. So what was my final decision?? Did i tell anyone about this??

Ok, i took up the PA position which is just me alone and let go a section manager position with about 50 people assisting me, what a stupid decision ya!! But i'm looking for prospects, looking for challenges and many other concerns, am i not???

Now i'm regret on what i have chosen, so much regret on the decision that i had made. Had a discussion with Mr. Boss about the new position last week, he told me “Apart from the sleep time, all your time is mine.” Oh my goodness, WTF is this??? Do you want to fully utilize me like this?? In my appointment letter just stated 5.5 days a week instead of unlimited time. Ok, i supposed i should know all these before any decision has been made. I'm suck.

Perhaps you don't need a time to be with your family, you can just leave your wife a side and living yourself. But could i have a little bit of my private time?? And please don't go and “sapu” all the shits and throw it to me like this. What i meant was he asked me to take care of publication dept temporarily until the new head coming in. F**k x 100....i have never touched their things before, do you think i can??? The dept is like a "dead meat" like that, so who i supposed to ask if i don't know?? So pissed off, makes me busy like hell these days just to discover the things.

I do remember the question that CP threw to me last time. “Is this a job you are looking for? Do you still need to do it like hell, stress like hell in the future?” he asked. Now i'm questioning myself, did i not consider this as one of the factor? Then why would i still made such a “WRONG” (i supposed) decision??

I should take up the other position. Why i said so?? Ok, let me explain to you. Firstly, the job function is similar to what i'm doing now, so is easier for me to catch up. And secondly, the current HOD would be transferred to another department, and my colleague will take over her jobs. Well, what so good about my colleague? He is a very nice guy, and i have been working with him for almost 2 years. We are like-minded. Sometime we just need a great partner like this, isn't?? Btw, he is called Steven as well, lolz lolz~~!!

Mama called me last night about 12am. Talking about the changes of my current work. She blamed me on not asking for her advice before making a decision, haikssss...!! I know her good intention la, she just worried about me. Still remember my first time traveled to KK alone, i can't exactly recall on how many times she had called to my phone. Dear, your daughter is capable enough to handle it la. And i know how to take care of myself.

Starting from June onwards, my life is just so gonna be suck. Might be traveling to oversea very soon. Shall i freeze my membership? Will see how la.... When can i surrender my body, mind and soul???

Life is often likened to a journey... BIG SIGH!!! :(